[EVE] An Astrahus for One

Well. So far I’ve been left in peace to do my thing in the wormhole I’m currently living in. Will it always be that way? Nope. But for now, it’s lovely.

I’ve been huffing, mining, exploring, hacking – your usual wormhole activities. I keep my eyes peeled for a nice exit to high sec and every once in a while I’m rewarded. I’m trying to make sure I keep it quiet, there’s no fancy ships or expensive components around. When I do lose the structure it won’t be a big deal. Honestly it’s not so different from my backpack adventures. A bit less portable, I suppose.

I might train my 2nd account into an Odysseus, or maybe pick up an Orca. I’d like to leave most of my materials and supplies outside of the station so that when shit hits the fan I’ve already been evacuated and won’t have to struggle too much to get everything sorted. Leave one of my alts as the pilot of the ship, and it sound be fairly easy.

We’ll see how that goes.

As always, fly your way! o7

[WoW] Back to the Beginning…

In an effort to ‘fake it until you make it’ I decided to dive head first back into World of Warcraft. This is an easy game to do that in, because honestly, nothing changes. There is a main story, some public quests, a weekly quest or two, and the gear grind. I queued up for some raids (which took me 40 minutes to get in as a healer on a Thursday, this is one of my biggest issues with the trinity gameplay of World of Warcraft) and then did some delves, and then also did some Timewalking (which happens to be Battle for Azeroth this week, not my favourite). I upgraded a few pieces of gear, made note that I need to actually work on the story line sometime (remember way back when, I had completed it on my Paladin and then decided not to play her any more) and tried to remember if I even cared about the storyline of Midnight. The answer to that – nope.

Before I knew it time had passed and it was time to get ready for lunch. Was this meaningful gameplay? Not at all. Was it fun? Hmm. I suppose, in a way. It was comfortable, dependable, and exactly what I was expecting from World of Warcraft, despite being ‘away’ for a number of months.

Will I continue? Well. I will make an effort to, but we’ll just have to see. The more I play other games like GW2 and even to some degree, EQL, the less I enjoy having to rely on others to provide the trinity in order for me to get anything done in game. Now, I know you do not HAVE to do all of the things that require a trinity, but then it feels a bit like you’re missing out and you are absolutely shuffled towards that method of gameplay. It’s just not really for me any more.

As always, happy gaming – no matter where you find yourself.

[Life] When you’re not sure what to Play…

This week has been one of the most difficult weeks I’ve ever had – and thankfully I can see a light at the end of the tunnel, but I’m not quite there yet. I’ve been trying to lean on my go-to during stressful times, which is gaming – but I have not been feeling it at all. A combination of reasons, really.

So I log into Wurm, do a task or two, then log out. Log into World of Warcraft, post some auctions, log out. Log into EVE, claim my daily (I’m not even sure what these ones are for to be honest) and log out. Rinse, repeat. No meaningful gaming happening what so ever. GW2? Barely. EQL? Not since Belghast passed away.

I keep searching for something. I’m not even sure what. I suppose it’s community of some sort. I think it was Tipa who mentioned that gaming alone in an MMORPG is just … not fun. You might as well be playing a single player game. I agree to some level, but I think we need to actively seek out those communities we crave, and insert ourselves into them and then move forward from there. I’m too used to watching everyone else do their thing while I’m just.. here. Awkwardly.

I unfortunately just don’t have it in me right now. So I’ll continue to wander from game to game, and craft to craft until something changes, or I start to feel that tug that I’ve been waiting for. Hopefully next week will be better.

As always, happy gaming – no matter where you find yourself.

[WoW] Gold Making Wrap Up – Week 27 (2026)

Well, this week 6/10 of my WoW servers earned gold which isn’t great but isn’t exactly bad, either. I earned a total of 1.2 million in that time, with 17 sales. I did not post on Saturday or Sunday, which is mostly just because life has been kicking me around, but it’s nice to see a little continuity back in the works.

I did log in expecting to play this week but unfortunately I just could not make things stick and I bounced right back out. So why keep posting sales? Well. Habit, for one, and it’s still something I’m good at, thus I enjoy it. I may not be getting the same pleasure from the game that I used to, but I’m not ready to write it off entirely.

Sales this week were a few patterns, and a lot of smaller transmog items. I’ve managed to restock, so maybe we’ll see some bigger sales in the future.

As always, happy gaming – no matter where you find yourself.

[Life] Yep. Another Belghast Post.

I slept like shit last night, partly because it was 46C and my house is 36C, partly because my rock support is across the country, and partly because I’m still in shock that Mark is gone. I thought I’d share a conversation me and Mark had last year, where we both admitted we admired one another, and both thought the other person “had it all together” when in fact, neither of us had it all together.

I’ve had many of these conversations over the years as I tried to apologize for my past immaturity. I fully admit that I was not a good person and it took some serious growing up on my part to become who I am now – and I am proud of myself for finally getting there, but I also have a lot of regret. Some friendships were beyond repair, and I had to learn to let go. Those are the ones that hurt the most, that I still think about from time to time.

Any way. I’m so thankful to have gotten to have these conversations with Mark but I’m also just filled with a whole lot of fucking sadness.