Tag: EVE

Three hundred.

When I first saw the number, I stared at it for a while, as if it might politely shrink if I gave it enough time. Tending caches has always been part of what we do—quiet work, steady work—but seeing it written down as a new requirement to joining Anoikis Division made it feel different somehow. I was already counting 4 days down, that would make 120 days flying with Signal Cartel. Sometimes when I think back to my days with Pandemic Horde I wonder how it could have changed so quickly. Other days I barely think about it at all.

Three hundred is a lot of anything.

So I made a decision early on: I wouldn’t rush it.

Burnout has a way of sneaking up on explorers. One moment you’re happily scanning signatures, the next everything feels like a chore and even launching probes seems like too much effort. I’ve learned to respect that line. So instead of sprinting toward the number, I’ve been taking it in bite-sized pieces.

A few caches today. A handful tomorrow.

The work itself is simple. Warp in. Check the container. Swap out what needs replacing. Update the records. Move on. Most systems are quiet when I arrive, the stars hanging still while I go about the task like a careful gardener tending something small but important.

Nothing dramatic happens.

No capsuleers appear on grid. No sudden scrams. No heroic rescues. Just the quiet rhythm of maintenance and movement, system after system slowly adding to the count.

Sometimes I pause after finishing one, watching the counter tick upward. 142. 147. 152. The numbers climb slowly, but they climb all the same.

Three hundred still feels far away.

But wormhole space has taught me something useful over the years: big journeys rarely happen all at once. They happen one careful jump at a time, one bookmark, one quiet task completed before moving on to the next.

So I’ll keep tending them.

A few today. A few tomorrow.

Eventually, three hundred won’t seem so large anymore.

I hesitated before plugging in, hovering over the comms for a second longer than necessary. Leadership Fireside Chat. I’d heard people talk about it, but this was my first time actually listening in. I set my ship to idle and let the channel open, unsure what to expect.

The voices came through warm and easy, far less formal than I’d imagined. Each head of the Signal Cartel departments took their turn, talking about the year—what they’d worked on, what they’d learned, where things were headed. It felt less like a briefing and more like sitting in on a conversation I was being quietly invited into.

There were jokes almost immediately. Someone teased Xalyar about how much they liked to talk, and the laughter that followed felt familiar even though I’d never heard it before. When Vega came up, there were comments about them always having a Signal Cartel wiki link ready to go at a moment’s notice. I didn’t know all the context yet, but I laughed anyway. The tone made it easy.

Then came the numbers. Wormholes tended. Signatures watched over. Routes maintained. And the rescues—how many pilots the 911 program had pulled back from places they thought were the end. Hearing it all out loud made it real in a way that reading reports never quite does. So much quiet effort, spread across so many systems, all adding up to something that mattered.

When Anoikis Division came up, I found myself leaning closer to the speakers. Tamayo spoke about it carefully—about redacted, about more redacted after the eviction, about patience (which we all know I lack). AD recruitment was still paused, still finding its footing again, and there were hints that some things would change once it returned, including the requirements to join. I didn’t know what those might be and that uncertainty sat heavy in my chest. But underneath it was excitement, too. AD has always been something I’ve quietly dreamed about, and just hearing it spoken aloud made it feel closer… even if the path there might shift.

What surprised me most was how light the whole thing felt. Between the statistics were little side comments, laughter, the occasional overlapping voices or forgotten mute. No one rushed. No one postured. Just people who cared, talking about work they were proud of.

I sat there longer than I meant to, listening, absorbing it. Feeling, for the first time, like I could really hear the shape of the corporation I’d joined.

When the channel finally went quiet, I stayed plugged in for a moment, staring out into space.

I think I finally understood.

[[ Got some bad news about a fellow Signal Cartel member, so this post is in reference to that ]]

Some days the universe feels louder than others.

The bad news came earlier, slipping into my thoughts and refusing to leave. Nothing exploded. No alarms blared. Just a simple truth that settled in and made everything feel heavier than it had a moment before. I carried it with me back to the hangar, where ships waited patiently, unaware of anything beyond fittings and fuel.

I chose the Stratios.

There’s something comforting about working with my hands, even when the hands are virtual and the work is ritual. Modules slotted in. Racks checked twice. Then, almost as an afterthought, I loaded the festive launchers. Bright. Ridiculous. Small flashes of color meant for celebration, not combat.

Life is like that, I think. Delicate. Vast and fragile all at once. One wrong turn, one unexpected message, and everything feels like it might crack if you press too hard. Capsuleers talk a lot about immortality, about how death is just another inconvenience. But the truth is softer and sadder than that. Not everything respawns.

The Stratios finished fitting with a soft confirmation tone. I paused, looking at her silhouette, the absurdity of fireworks strapped to a ship built for shadows. It felt right anyway. A quiet defiance. A reminder that even when things hurt, there’s still room for light.

Carefully. Gently. One jump at a time.

I’ve never been very good at asking for things.

Signal Cartel makes it clear, of course. There are steps. Three ranks. Member, C1, C2. Clean. Logical. Earned. C2 is the threshold — the point where doors like Anoikis Division stop being distant ideas and start feeling possible. Someday, I want to walk through one of those doors.

But wanting something and asking for it are two very different skills.

I waited my thirty days as C1. I stayed active. I scanned, mapped, helped where I could. Nothing flashy. No big hero moments. Just showing up, over and over, hoping that counted for something. Still, when it came time to write the message, my hands hesitated over the console longer than I’d like to admit.

Why do you want C2?

Because I believe in this place. Because exploration feels like home. Because I want to give more than I take. I tried to put that into words without overselling it, without sounding like someone I’m not. Then I sent the message off to Aldar Roanaok and told myself not to obsess over it.

I absolutely obsessed over it.

Today, the response came back.

C2 approved.

Just like that. A few words on a screen, and suddenly the weight I’d been carrying slipped away. Relief first — deep and grounding — then excitement, warm and bright and almost surprising in its intensity. I sat there smiling at nothing, stars drifting past the viewport, feeling quietly seen.

This isn’t the end of anything. If anything, it feels like the real beginning. There’s more to learn, more to do, more ways to serve the strange, kind, careful people who call Tranquility home.

I’m still subdued. Still the same explorer who would rather scan than speak.
But tonight, I let myself feel proud.

Fly your way,
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